compliance {fiction's outlet}

i can not blame you...you wish to live life, experience what is new, or repeatedly visualize yourself in one situation. am i being too vague? perhaps i am. perhaps i am only concealing layers to secure your emotions. which is more true to you?, the life you live or the one you want to have. or maybe i am completely wrong, maybe its the life you wish you still had. will it be sacrificed or forever be buried deep into your customs. i hate the anger that follows with these thoughts. the insecurities that may proceed and topple over me. will you one day decide it isnt enough? is it starting to feel that way already? are you searching for something special that only stangers can provide. too much has been said, too much done, too much has been experienced and yet these questions still remain and i too remain.